So after being apart of the Good News in Korea for about two months, I decided to return from Korea. During this time, I studied the Bible a lot on my own, pretty much daily. I learned so much. I also would listen to Pastor Park’s sermons every week.
I did this from about November until about the time I decided to go to the church I went to. When I decided to go there they invited us to many of the conferences such as the one in New York that Ock Soo Park does two times a year.
It was around this time that I lost my job and the area that we lived in was really bad on the economy. The Pastor gave us the option to come and stay with a church family and look for work. So we moved to this area, with this intent.
However, as soon as we got there, the pastor said he wanted me to try the mission training or whatever it was with the missionaries. This caught me off guard some, but I listened to him. He said that either God would lead me one of two paths:
1. Down the road of becoming a missionary/pastor. In which case then this training would help me decide. If that was the path then I should go to the Mission school in New York, Mahanaim.
2. The Spiritual life path. This is for those in the church whom do not go into full time ministry.
So he said to try out their program for a few months. Looking back, I don’t think I would have had an option. I think they wanted me and my friends to all go and become pastors in their church, simply because they want Americans to preach the gospel to Americans. I say this because of an interest in IYF, and was basically shot down, for in my oppinion this very reason.
In case you are wondering, IYF is a program Good News Mission does where they try and recruit people around 18-30 to go and serve for one year. Later I will try and discuss more in detail about what I know about IYF.
So, for about a month I tried my hardest. I was scolded and ridiculed a lot. In one moment the pastor would encourage me one way, then he would discourage me the exact opposite.
Here is an example of what I mean. Once when talking with the pastor, he said that I had a complaint-full heart. He said that when those times came to get rid of it, I needed to voice it. This would help in the change. Then a week later, he told me to quit complaining and change my heart.
This idea of changing your heart never made sense. They say that Jesus does things, such as changing your heart. There is nothing you can do. So if there is nothing I can do, then why do I need to change my heart?
It was around this time that this pastor got transferred. From what I understand they try and keep a pastor there no more then 7-10 years. They have some reasons which I think do in fact make some sense. The biggest reason is if a pastor stays in a place to long, then they think it’s there church, not God’s church. However, if you read my “A sad story part 1” you will see that this pastor thought it was HIS church not GOD’S church.
This pastor was a pervert as far as I can tell. He actually squeezed one of my friend’s but. He also believed if you have any contact with the opposite sex, such as a hand shake, then that would lead to you having sex with that person.
Also at the same time a girl had an injury and could not eat. She was like this for about 6 days. I started bringing this to his attention. He said let’s wait until this conference at a city in the southern USA, and there is a chiropractor that could help her. He also said that he was trying to help her learn to have faith that God would heal her.
Now there are some problems with this. First, this conference was about 2 weeks away, on top of her 6 days without food. Next, it’s easy for him to tell her to “have faith” when he was piling on the food each meal and eating a lot, while she ate nothing. Finally, even Ock Soo Park goes to doctors and has himself checked out when there is a problem.
A few days later, my wife said that she didn’t want to stay there anymore. I got her to a safe location which took about a day, and went back, because I was still not convinced about the truth of the mission or as I now refer to it as a cult.
So, when I got back I explained the situation to the pastor and even apologized to him. He said that he thinks God hates me and I had to make it up to him. He also was mad that my wife was gone and our unborn child.
This is when it finally dawned on me that it was a cult. They wanted our child. From the research I have done, cults LOVE kids.
So with this, at about 3 am, I felt so many demonic presences it was not even funny. I walked at at 4 am and went to a hotel and waited for family to come and pick me up. I was finished because I saw it for what it was.